Some people suggest that good physical health is essential for deep
spirituality, but this is certainly not correct. Sometimes it is the other way round, for a person who constantly maintains
a spiritual link with God is frequently thereby enabled to keep his/her body healthy, but this too, is not always so. Saints
such as Little Therese, maintained their holiness DESPITE their physical sufferings and as a result, achieved the end of the
Quest when still quite young. Others such as Jessie Ward, whose work required them to remain on earth for many years, were
generally healthy but were usually able to maintain their spiritual contact even when physically unwell[1]
The Founding members of the Work each adopted Latin religious names, and Jessie’s was “Altius
Tendo”, meaning “towards the heights”. Ward’s mystical name was Seraphion, and Jessie was similarly
known as Serapha on Higher Planes, but these names were rarely used on earth. In the Confraternity, she was usually known
as the Reverend Mother, or sometimes simply as “Mother”, but since achieving sanctity, her followers have generally
referred to her as St Serapha, and this brief account of her life by her stepson, John Cuffe, (Ward’s natural son) often uses this name for her.
Early Life
St Serapha was born Jessie Page, the youngest daughter and second youngest child of Charles and Jean
Page on March 10th 1890. At the time her mother, Emily Jean Page (nee Savage)
was about 42 and had already born several children, not all of whom survived infancy. Jessie and her brother Charles who was
two years younger than her, were significantly younger than the rest. Charles was also the only one to survive Jessie and
I suspect that he was the only surviving son[2]. The only sister of whom I have definite knowledge was significantly older than Jessie. Edith
Garwood, died on 30th October 1929, and is commemorated in a stained glass window of Christ the King, which is
now in St Michael’s Church, Caboolture.
Charles Page senior died about the time Charles junior was born, and Mother, as I used
to call her, once told me that one of her earliest memories was of standing holding her father’s hand and that “he
died before I was two.” She did not often talk about her past, and I am indebted to Father Peter Strong for some of
the following information about her early life, for she rarely spoke about it. I do recall hearing how she earned her pocket
money when young – with her brother, she would visit the strict Jewish families in the neighbourhood on Saturdays and
get paid for stoking their fires, for they would not do so on their Sabbath.
The young Jessie was naturally left-handed but her first teachers forced her to write
with her right hand and eventually she became almost ambidextrous. A bright student at school, she once told me that she had
an advantage over other children in written tests. The students all had to write their full names at the top of every page,
and as hers was so short - just “Jessie Page”, with no middle name - she was able to get a head start. She eventually
became a teacher and it was she who conducted my schooling in Redcliffe, even though, at that time, home schooling was not
legal in Australia.
She spent most of her early life as a teacher, eventually, as she once told me, becoming Head Mistress
of “one of the largest girls’ schools in England”.
As such, she was reasonably well off, forming part of the British Upper Middle Class and like most of her contemporaries,
she would probably have been “presented at court” though I cannot recall the subject ever having been raised.
I do know, however, that she had had some contact with Queen Mary before starting the Work, and it was because of her, rather
than the Rev. Father, that when the Folk Park
opened in 1934, the Queen presented it with a collection of Victorian knickknacks.
As a maiden lady in her early twenties, she usually lived with her mother and the two
of them travelled quite frequently in Europe during the summer school holidays, often as
part of a group of friends. She was travelling with her mother, as the world moved towards war during the summer of 1914,
and apparently they only just managed to get out of Germany before Britain entered the conflict on August 4th. During
the war she appears to have had some degree of contact with Lloyd George the War-time Prime Minister, whom she described as
“quite a one with the ladies”. Her own war-effort involved nursing, but afterwards she returned to her career
as a teacher.
As a young woman Miss Jessie Page had been strongly involved in the women’s movement, and may
even have participated in some of the protests of this period. She was always interested in women’s rights, although
condemning the more extreme positions taken by some supporters of the movement. To her, men and women were “equal but
different” and each had specific roles to play in God’s Church, and indeed in the world at large. In her later
years she constantly emphasised that the way that society was coming to accept the change in the status of women was a New
Age phenomenon, because, she predicted, it would be an Age in which belief in the Divine Mother, the Holy Spirit, would play
an increasingly significant role. She also pointed to the Pentecostal movement, then in its infancy, as another indicator
of that coming change.
At this stage in her life, she also had some level of contact with Annie Besant, the well-known President
of the Theosophical society and in conversations with me, she often referred to Besant’s protégé, the so-called messiah
Jiddu Krishnamurti, who personally repudiated Theosophy in 1929. She saw “the boy himself” as being merely one
of the many “false Christs” that were predicted to precede the coming of the True Messiah.
It was during the war years that she began to develop a considerable interest in psychic phenomena
and Eastern philosophy. She began attending a clairvoyant centre in London known as Stead's Bureau.[3]. There she heard a medium call for 'Flower of the Desert.' Of those present
it was only Miss Page who responded, for oddly enough she had just received from her brother in Egypt a present of desert flowers. The medium could not have known this, and she
was impressed by his clairvoyant powers. Soon afterwards she attended a Masonic lecture given by a Mrs Lena Oppenheimer, through
whom, some three months later she was initiated into the Order of the Eastern Star – a female-orientated group with significant Masonic connections. She also developed a strong
interest in the Rosicrucians and it was through these connections that she first met John Sebastian Marlow Ward in 1918. They
did not meet again until 1922, when she wrote to him, asking his advice and help in the
founding of a non-Masonic group dedicated to the study of Eastern Wisdom. Having been ordained as a Hindu High Priest
when in India, Eastern Philosophy was
always of special interest to Ward and he joined her in founding the Order of Indian Wisdom, an enterprise that was to become
the first stage of their spiritual journey together.
In
her psychic studies, Jessie Page also attended lectures on dreams, discovering that some could be real experiences that God
can use in His providential work. She was told how sometimes people who prayed for the privilege, would be allowed to help
souls in the Afterlife and she did so. Soon afterwards, she awoke one morning with a large burn on her arm for which there
was no possible physical cause. Then she recalled that she had had a dream in which she was on a burning ship, rescuing the
dying and helping them into the Afterlife. At first she wondered whether the burn was psychosomatic, or whether it indicated
that she had really been on a burning ship! Then, that evening on her way to
a meeting she saw a placard about a troop ship that had been hit and caught fire, with many deaths. Her dream and the burn
on her arm were enough to convince her that she had been there. At last she knew that passing into the next dimension was
no figment of her imagination, but a real as anything that might happen on earth.
Later,
when she told him about it, John Ward was very interested in her dream, for he too, had had numerous experiences in the Astral,
especially during the war years when he had assisted his younger brother, Rex, to adjust to life on the Astral Plane after
he had been killed in the bloody trench war-fare of Flanders. This common interest, helped
to establish a psychic and spiritual bond between John and Jessie that grew steadily stronger over time. They constantly compared
dreams and other psychic experiences until eventually they found themselves moving together into the realms of mysticism.
Mystical Initiation
This
started with a strange series of dreams, about which they began to compare notes. One night Jessie dreamed that she had reached
a certain door, but that was all. The same night, Ward had also had a dream in which he had reached the same door but he had
also seen beyond it. Other dreams followed, and they continued for some years in an extraordinarily interlocking format which
surprised them both. Each dream only made sense when it was set side by side with its fellow, but then the elements combined
to give a complete picture. They were able to compare dreams at weekends and continued to do so for some years.
Thus
began their mystical training, for because the dreams were thus interwoven they could hardly doubt that they were real experiences,
though at first, they did not grasp their full significance. John
Ward’s extensive knowledge of Freemasonry[4] and his experiences in India and Burma were also of great interest to Jessie Page, and these common interests combined
to threaten, and eventually to end her, by now long-established, spinsterhood. At this period she was head of one of Finchley Primary School, one of the largest girls’
schools in England and living with her mother (Jean Page) in Golders’ Green, an upper class suburb of London.
At the time John Ward was working as the head of the intelligence department of the Federation of British
Industry[5] one of the most responsible roles in British Industry, and so was party to many government secrets.
Jessie was already strongly opposed to the Bolsheviks in Russia and also against the British Labour Party, then in government
in Britain for the first time and when through John Ward, she learned[6], that the Russian Bolshevik government had been caught paying bribes to the British Labour Party
to keep them from allowing Britain to take action against Bolshevik atrocities[7], she was furious.
As she told the story she was equally critical that the Conservative Party, instead of making the news
public and using it to force a general election, used the threat of publicity to compel Labour to agree to form a government
of National Unity. Not long thereafter there was a general election and the National Unity government was returned, through
without most of the Labour members, which formed the new Opposition, but the news of the treachery was never made public,
and she may well have been right to think that if it had been, the British Labour Party would been politically destroyed for
ever. As it was, she complained, although it lost that election it got back into government again after the Second World War,
and presided over the transfer of atomic secrets to Russia and the destruction
of the British Empire.
There
is little doubt that bribery took place, perhaps during the early 1920’s strikes, when the local Bolshevik sympathizers
were certainly trying to bring about revolution in England, as well as in other countries. Although today, from the safe vantage
point of history, we can see that they never really came close to producing an English Bolshevik Revolution, this was not
so obvious at the time. As Rev. Mother once told me “it was never made public” it has been no surprise to me that
I can find no reference to the incident in history books. They merely say that the Labour government was forced to resign
after just over two years in office and form the National Unity government, because of the Great Depression.
The Calling of John Ward and Jessie Page
Whatever the precise details, it was against this historical background that John Ward
and Jessie Page continued their spiritual and personal development in the mid 1920’s. In 1926 John Ward’s first
wife, Clarrie, died after a long illness, and in early 1927 he and Jessie Page were planning to marry. As she described it
to me he seems to have stayed in the Page establishment at Golders’ Green[8] fairly regularly on the weekends and one Sunday morning early in 1927, when they met over breakfast,
they each found that the other had had a most amazing dream[9]. As she told the story, they had each found themselves in the presence of Christ, Who told them
that He was about to descend to earth again and asked them to found a work to prepare the way for Him. They both agreed and
were then told that they might go ahead with their planned marriage, but “not to get too attached to our home as we
wouldn’t be staying there for long”. They compared notes and then waited for something to happen, but for a time,
nothing did.
They married on the 4th April, 1927, and then honeymooned in Italy and Switzerland, before taking up their abode with Jessie’s mother, Jean
Page, in the house at Golders Green, where they remained for another couple of years. They had several other significant dreams during this period including one in which they had passed a ‘day’ in a religious community while in the Astral state. Unlike traditional
religious orders, this community included both men and women and provided the model for the Work they were to found on earth.
It
took them several days to write down this joint dream. John Ward was able to remember perfectly all the words of the ceremonies
that had taken place but they seemed to make little sense until added to Jessie's dream, which was about all the rubrics and
ceremonial details. Then the ceremonies came alive. Some time later they experienced another `day' in this Astral Abbey and
their recollections of the ceremonies they attended there were to form the basis for the ceremonies later held in the Community
on earth.
Next
they had another joint dream – this time a `dream within a dream', which indicates that they had passed to a Higher
Plane, (a deeper level of Consciousness) and it was thus that they first met the
Angelic Guardian of the Work, whom they came to refer to the Master of the Work or sometimes simply s “The Master”.
He told them that they were to begin their work for Christ by gathering a nucleus of chosen souls, but they were not told
who to select, nor how to go about it. Then Ward was told by the Angel to give a series of public lectures and they hired
the Lindora Restaurant in London, at 6.30 p.m. on Sundays
for six weeks, starting in January 1929. It was at this time that Jessie Ward described
the descent[10] of Christ the King to the realm of the Seraphim[11].
In the lectures John Ward spoke on a number of subjects, of which
the book “Life’s Problems” is a synopsis, and as he was a well-known public speaker the talks were initially
well-attended, but the numbers gradually dwindled and at the end only nine other people were present. These were all invited to continue their studies at the Wards' home in Golders Green. An altar was set
up in their house, meditations began, and for the Church-to-be, an altar frontal with angels on it was most beautifully embroidered
by the women. At this time no one had any idea where this Church would be built, nor what it would look like; the Wards simply
filled their house, as instructed by the Angel, with valuable antiques to furnish a Church and an Abbey, even though they
could not be sure that they would ever exist on earth and they also started a building Fund to pay for them; such was their
faith!
Several of the members of their new
group were teachers from Jessie’s school, and all held jobs of some sort, so no real community life was possible at this time, though regular services, derived from those the Wards had attended on the
Astral Plane, were held every Sunday from March 1929 onwards. For this reason 1929 has sometimes been seen as the date of
the beginning of the Community, although technically the Work on earth commenced when the Wards were called into the Presence
of Christ the King in 1927.
Partly
as a result of holding these services, the Wards began to be addressed as Rev. Father and Rev. Mother during this period,
and when referring to them, henceforward I shall usually use these titles. It was also at about this time that they began
to record the first special hymns of the Confraternity. Rev. Father was an accomplished poet, who had already published one
book of poems and it was mainly he who provided the lyrics, but neither he, nor Rev. Mother were musical and although she
could hear tunes in her head, she was not an accomplished musician. Nevertheless, she bought a book on harmony and began to
record the basic tunes, from which others have since been able to write the accompaniments.
Founding the Abbey
Early
in 1930, seven of those who had been regular attendees of the services at Golders’ Green agreed to join the Reverend
Father and Mother in Founding the Abbey and the Reverend Mother was told distinctly to search near Margate, for the future
church. When they eventually found an old tithe barn with a stone tracery window at one end, they employed a man named Ernest
Timpson to remove and rebuild it, even though at this time they had not yet acquired a property on which it could be erected.
They searched frantically, rejecting many houses before they finally decided on Hadley Hall. Apparently they wondered why
they had not been led straight to the right one, for something called forth an interesting comment from the Angelic Guardian;
“Human beings are curious creatures,” he said, “and if you had not
gone around and found all the other houses impossible, you would have found fault with this one and blamed me.”
Hadley Hall was an architecturally significant building in its own right, being the first house in
England to be built of reinforced concrete.
Four stories high, it also had a large two-story cottage and a coach house about a hundred metres from the main building.
The grounds covered about three acres and were filled with many kinds of fruit trees, and masses of daffodils. When describing
to me their initial entry into the building, it was obviously significant to the Rev. Mother that it took place on the Festival
of the Divine Father (24th June 1930). It was that same evening 24th/25th
June 1930 that Christ the King descended to the Plane of the Cherubim, having spent only 17 months among the Seraphim, but
what an eventful seventeen months they had been on earth!
Altogether six other people, two couples[12] and two maiden ladies, initially joined the Wards to start the community at Barnet and all eight
began to live there together with a gardener, Timkins and, I think, several other servants[13]. They were each given new Latin names as an indication of their new status as brothers and
sisters of the Confraternity - the Wards were given the names, Custos Custodiens[14] and Altius Tendo, though they were always addressed as Reverend Father and Reverend Mother
Working under Divine Guidance
This, however, was just the beginning. Timpson the builder, was instructed to erect the tithe-barn/Church
near the main house, joined to it by a covered way and he was constantly amazed at the way that so many items bought some
time before in obedience to the Master, fitted so exactly in the various places for which they were intended. Frequently the
Angelic Guardian would send the Reverend Father and Mother out to buy antiques at a particular place, knowing, as they did
not that there was nothing for them there. Then they would be sent to other places before finding what he meant them to buy.
This
was done for several reasons, which those who are treading the Mystic Path will clearly recognise. Firstly of course it was
designed to allow them to demonstrate their willingness to obey, and this was important, for it was this obedience that allowed
them to earn the karmic right to guidance. This is something that must always be born in mind by those who aspire to hear
“The Voice” for that the capacity to receive Divine Guidance is a great blessing, and one that is only granted
to those who have previously earned it by a long and arduous service to God. Equally though, they must continue to demonstrate
their worthiness, if such a privilege is to go on, and this is most readily achieved by constant obedience to the commands
received.
The
tithe barn was transported from Birchington, near Margate in Kent, and to Timpson's amazement the various items that had been purchased previously
all fitted exactly as also was the case with others acquired at this time. Towards the end of construction there remained
a large empty window space at the west end, and Rev. Mother had had a vision of a picture of the Seraph Michael filling that
space. Eventually a stained glass window of Michael was found. It fitted the space exactly and by year’s end the chapel
was ready and the local Anglican Bishop Furze, dedicated the Chapel on the 14th February, 1931.
Soon,
however, money began to run short and servants had to go. Finally, as Rev. Mother once told me, “the Master said that
‘As we needed an income we had better start a school’. We thought that with God behind it the school was sure
to go well, but it didn’t - we only just made ends meet”! When the Folk
Park proved to be a financial success in 1934, the school was closed
down, but in due course, several of the ex-students went
on to join the community. The idea, however, did not die and when I was young and Rev. Mother taught me at Redcliffe, we referred
to ourselves as St. Michael’s College, though Michael Strong and I were the only students. When in 1965 the property
was bought at Caboolture it was named St. Michael’s and when a school was established there, St. Michael’s College
began to function once again.
However, by the time the original St Michaels College closed, relations with the Anglican Church were rapidly deteriorating, mainly, St Serapha told, me, because
Rev. Father refused to stop preaching about the return of Christ. In 1934 the services of the chaplain were withdrawn and
the community was effectively forced to abandon its Anglican heritage. It was left in limbo, without any priest or access
to the Sacraments for almost a year, until on October 6th, 1935 Rev. Father was able to obtain Valid Episcopal
Consecration from Archbishop Churchill Sibley and the Confraternity joined the Orthodox Catholic Church. Rev. Mother was formally
installed as Abbess, the other sisters were made deaconesses and Father Filius Domini was ordained as a priest.
During the late 1930’s and early 1940’s, whilst the Rev. Father was establishing the Folk Park and dealing
with ecclesiastical matters, the Rev. Mother was primarily responsible for running the community and training the new, younger
members who joined during that period and were to carry the work forward into the future. She wrote many books over that time,
mainly about various aspects of the religious life, and about her mystical experiences on other Planes, especially her contacts
with the patron Saints of the new members. Some of these books are still held at the library at St Michael’s in Caboolture
though others have been lost.
When I was young, Rev Mother loved to talk about her outings in the car, with Rev. Father, both before
and during the Second World War. She usually drove, because his eyesight was so bad, and I remember her describing one incident
when they were caught in a fog. She couldn’t see a thing, and Rev. Father had to get out and walk along the kerb whilst
holding on to the car and guiding her through the window. Another favourite story described their visit to the city after
St Pauls’ Cathedral had been bombed, when they met Winston Churchill. He was coming out of a building as they entered
it and he gave them his famous V for Victory sign and they returned it. “What did he say”, I asked eagerly; “Well,
he seemed a bit surprised, but he didn’t actually say anything.”
By this time a number of young people, both male and female had joined the community, and in order
to ensure that the two young males (Father Peter and Father Ignatius) were not
called up for military service[15] during the War, they were both brought very swiftly into the priesthood and were ordained well
before the usual canonical age(24). Several children who were evacuated from London during the Blitz also stayed with the Confraternity at this period
and St Serapha was largely responsible for supervising their teaching. Some of them later joined the Community and these included
a certain Dorothy Lough, who was 18 years of age[16], when early in 1945 she took her vows to God and joined the order as Sister Therese. As she
was under the age of majority (then 21) she had had to obtain her father’s
consent and although unsupportive, he had eventually given that permission in writing. However, having previously abused her
sexually, he bitterly resented her decision, and our enemies wishing to do us harm, had little difficulty in. persuading him
to seek again for legal custody of his daughter whilst they funded a King’s Counsel for him.
The
ensuing Court Case is discussed elsewhere; suffice it to say here, that despite having received written consent, the decision
went against us. Our enemies felt they had achieved a major
victory over the Work and that it would soon be destroyed as a result of the costs of the case if for no other reason. In
this of course they were wrong, but they had succeeded in corrupting the much-vaunted British Justice System and as a result
Britain was condemned by God. Consequently
she lost both her Empire, which collapsed over the next decade or so, and the right to be the country that hosted the Work
of Preparation for the Coming of Christ the King.
Although at the time the community did not fully realise it, we can now see that this had in effect
been prophesied, some twelve years before, in the Fifth Apocalypse of Brother Seraphion and should not have surprised us,
but as it was, the Work was hit hard. Damages and the legal costs of both sides were awarded against Rev. Father. Rev Mother once told me they were about £10,000
in total,[17] and neither he, nor the community could pay the required amount immediately. As a result he was declared bankrupt and an
attempt was made to obtain Right of Entry[18] to the Abbey by the use of bailiffs who sought to enter and seize his assets. This, however,
was thwarted by the fact that Ward had taken a vow of poverty and so owned nothing of his own. The Abbey at New Barnet was
not the property of Rev. Father alone, but belonged to the whole community. The enemy had erred in taking action against him
alone, rather than against the whole community, as they later acknowledged, but for a while they still managed to make life
very difficult for all. Eventually, through the sale of museum pieces and art the money was paid, and the cost of leaving
England was later met in the same way.
Clearly, however, Sister Therese had
been denied natural justice and as religious orders have often done through the ages, the Community defied the secular power
to defend her. Almost miraculously, with the help of Third Order Members and others[19] she was first hidden in a number of safe-houses and then finally taken from England to Cyprus
with the rest of the community on a false passport. The legal authorities finally caught up with St Serapha after the death
of Sister Therese, in January 1963, although it does not seem that even then they knew what had actually become of her. Clearly
we can see the hand of God in the timing.
The Coming of Christ Delayed
I have digressed again. Rev. Father never recovered from the stress of the Case and the betrayal by
his Freemason friends. Possibly, too, as he believed he had been commissioned to “Awake the British Lion” the
proof that he had failed to do so, distressed him and perhaps this was the cause of the slight stroke that he suffered at
this time. He recovered sufficiently to take the community to Cyprus, but
once there, he and Rev. Mother had to face the reality that whatever might have been previously possible, now that England had rejected the Work, Christ would not come nearly
as soon as they had hoped. As a result they decided to make provision for their own mortality, and the obvious way to do this
was by producing a child, but the Rev. Mother was already long past the time when she could have expected to do so. In a similar
situation Sarah the wife of Abraham had asked him to sire a child through her handmaid Hagar[20] (Genesis 16; 2) and Rev. Mother decided that Rev.
Father should sire one or more children through the younger sisters of the community[21], who agreed to co-operate. There were only two unmarried male members but they both agreed
that if the sisters became pregnant by Rev. Father, they would marry them to legitimise the offspring.
In due course, this is what happened. I was conceived in the middle of 1948, and Father Maurice married
my mother, Sister Ursula on November 25th, whilst Sister Mary became pregnant about six months later and Father
Peter married her on 25th March 1949[22]. I was born on 29th March and although a doctor was called, Rev. Mother also assisted
at the birth. I was baptised a month later – at about the same time as Sr. Mary miscarried. Ward died soon afterwards,
and so I was left as his only son.
St Serapha and the Death of Rev. Father
Although the Rev. Father had recovered from the stroke he had had in England in 1946, his health had never fully returned and he died on July 2nd
1949, apparently from another stroke. Years later, speaking to me of that time, St. Serapha said. “In the first shock
of the moment we may have said ‘the work cannot go on’ but then we said ‘it must go on’”. This was her personal profession of Faith, and even though I was only about fifteen,
I think I realised it - probably for the first time she had shown me a glimpse of her inner self. I never forgot it
It
is important to understand that it is only at the moment of greatest trial that the true spirituality of the saints shines
forth most perfectly. It is as if the soul needs to be tested and tested again until all imperfections have been “wrung”
out of it. Then and only then can we see what is left – as in this case a soul ravaged by personal torment and sorrow,
yet still clinging desperately to the truth that it knows, still striving with the last shreds of its spiritual strength to
defend that truth. That is the hallmark of a saint; it is visible only in such times of extreme testing and therefore rarely
seen by others, but when it is seen it is unmistakeable.
Thus
it came about that the one we now call St Serapha took upon her shoulders the full responsibility for the Work on earth, which
theretofore she had shared with Reverend Father, and she took it on at a time of great stress and trial, during which both
her faith and that of the other community members were greatly tried[23]. There is no doubt that the death of the Reverend Father initially hit her hard,
but after the original shock had passed, the loss of her husband possibly affected her less than it does a normal widow, because through her mysticism, she was able to maintain regular contact with him and he continued
to guide and help her for many years thereafter. His death, however, not only marked the beginning of her widowhood, but even more significantly it meant that from then until her own passing in 1965,
she would be required to shoulder alone, the burden of being the head on earth of the Work of Preparation for the Coming of
Christ the King.
Most importantly during that time, she made it her special duty to have charge of me – so much
so, that at times she was sometimes criticised for favouring me over the younger boys. In the presence of others she always
tried to avoid appearing to do so, but when we were alone, she never tired of reminding me that I was “your father’s
son” and insisting that I live up to his standards. Certainly, I was closer to her and spent more time with her during
the last fifteen and a half years of her life, than was any one else during that
period. She cared for me, both practically and spiritually during most of the early years of my childhood and later, she was
largely responsible for both my secular and spiritual education. Finally as her life drew to its end, it was she who first
introduced me to the Mystical Path and began my training therein.
The death of the Rev. Father, not only affected St Serapha personally, it also damaged the finances
of the order, for which she suddenly found herself fully responsible. It had been largely the royalty cheques from his books
that had provided the community with money in Cyprus
and when he died, his publishers suddenly stopped sending them, when of course, by Law they should have paid them to his widow.
Unfortunately, as they were in England and she was in Cyprus without the means to take legal action against them,
they were able to keep the money and although his books continued to sell, neither his widow nor his community have since
received the benefit of further royalties from them.
St Serapha and the Psychic War.
Money thus became a major concern for the new leader of the Abbey. During its early years in Cyprus, it had tried to become self-supporting, but had never
quite reached that stage and the loss of its only monetary income affected it greatly. At times in the years that followed
it came close to starvation and during the same time period our enemies attacked again. We had escaped from England without their knowledge and they did not originally know where we had gone, but eventually
they located us in Cyprus. A period of
psychic warfare followed, in which our enemies on earth were assisted by even greater powers of evil from Beyond. Father Peter
has described this conflict in his diaries, but here, I will only speak of what Rev. Mother told me about that period, although
I shall occasionally refer to his records for my chronology.
She once spoke to me about a message from the Master that she received during this period, in which
he referred to one of the promises that she and Rev. Father had been given when starting the work. “We had told you
that if ever, through no fault of your own the Work was in jeopardy we would reveal to you, both the source of the danger
and how to combat it and at that time, (late 1951) that promise was fulfilled.
Already you had lost two members by death and were well on the way to losing half a dozen more”.
The community had long endured food shortages and many of the members were weak from semi-starvation.
Several caught pneumonia, which in their poor condition proved fatal for two (Sr Bridget
and Sr Bertha; September and October 1951 respectively) and several others including Rev Mother herself and Sr. Mary were
also very sick. Just as had happened to Christ after He had fasted for forty days and was afterwards “an hungered”,
so the community was assailed by the Powers of Darkness when it was physically at a low ebb. However, Rev. Mother and our
priests, with a lot of Divine Help and the use of all the powers of the Church led the fight against them, and eventually
we triumphed. Several Black Magicians had their malicious attacks turned back on themselves by these means, and at one point,
so St Serapha told me, most of the Grand
Circle in England
were killed in a single night. There is no doubt that the enemy lost many more lives in this Battle than we did, but then they could afford to, for they had a lot more members to start
with.
Black Magicians, who of course do not believe in God, blamed their reverses wholly on Rev. Mother who
they called by her mystical name “Serapha”. They also refer to Rev. Father as “Seraphion”, both of
which names probably derive from a life in which they were eminent in the rites of Serapis (c. 2nd century A.D.). However these names were not usually used within the community and I first learned
of them only when I began studying the records of her psychic conflicts under her guidance in early 1963. Even as a child
I am told that I was quite psychic, and apparently reported the presence of “Bad Men” on several occasions. Father
Peter refers to this and also to an incident in which I, then about three years of age, was taken in the Astral at night.
Rev Mother gave me a slightly different account of this event, which I shall now relate as she told it to me, without attempting
to justify either her version or Father Peter’s. First, however, let me explain somewhat of the nature of Psychic warfare.
The Nature of Psychic Warfare
As part of a Psychic War it is obviously necessary to obtain some occult “Contact” with
a victim in order to do him harm. The possible ways of establishing such a contact, are of course many and varied, but broadly
they fall into four categories, which are listed below in increasing order of strength, namely
(1) Basic Information, such as name, date of birth and other
things needed to cast a horoscope;
(2) An image or picture, particularly a true likeness or photograph
to be used as a focus for mental attacks, rather like a voodoo doll;
(3) Any item which the subject has handled or used, or getting
him to handle, use, or particularly, wear, an item provided for that purpose; and
(4)
An actual touch or other physical
contact, the more intimate the better.[24]
The enemy obtained their contact with
me through a photograph. Obviously at the time I was unaware of the danger, and when the photographer was accosted he promised
to give up the picture when developed. He did so (it still exists) but he obviously
passed a copy to our enemies. Using it, they made contact with my spirit in the Astral, when I was asleep and took it away
to their circle, where they would have attempted to hypnotise me. Rev. Mother went after me in the Astral and with the help
of the Angelic Guardian and of Michael, Captain of the Hosts of Heaven, was able to rescue me, apparently causing considerable
havoc in the Circle meeting in the process. (This may have been the time the whole
circle was found dead in the morning, but I am not certain)
Probably as a result of this attack on me, Rev. Mother usually had me sleep with her whilst we were
in Cyprus and this resulted in the strongest
possible psychic contact between us, a link that persisted until her death in 1965 and which, I believe, has remained strong
even since. In Redcliffe in 1963 when she began to train me in mysticism, she promised she would teach me many things, and
although, her physical death soon afterwards prevented her doing more in the flesh, I believe that she has continued to train
and guide me thereafter, and indeed still does.
Although the year 1951 was undoubtedly the hardest of the Community’s history, the following
three years, were also difficult, and it was during that period that the spiritual war with the Servants of Satan was eventually
won. The details are complicated and probably of only minor importance, but the basic principles are of great significance.
However, as I only came to understand them ten years later, I shall revisit the subject a little later in this account.
Leaving Cyprus
For the present I shall return to the story of our last days in Cyprus, where, by 1954, the Enosis movement was gaining in strength and attacks
against British people were increasing. Thus for this, if no other reason, it was plain that the Community would soon have
to leave the island, but we had very little money, and in late 1954 St Serapha flew back to England where she was able to
raise sufficient funds for us to leave Cyprus[25].
I was five at this time and do not remember her going, but I do recall taking the bus to Nicosia to
meet her when she returned and I have quite a vivid memory of the appearance of Nicosia airport after dark. We left Cyprus in November 1954, travelling via Beirut and Egypt and then going on to Ceylon
where we paused for about a month. Whilst we were there Rev. Mother travelled to India, and I remember her telling me about her visit to the Maharajah of Mysore
who had previously promised them land. However, after keeping her waiting for some time, (She
was away about three weeks in all) the Maharajah eventually declined to assist. The promise had been made many years before,
during the time of the British Raj and in connection with Rev. Father’s ordination as a Hindu High Priest. Things were
very different in an independent India and at that time, neither the Temple at Madura, nor the Maharajah felt that they could assist us.
With almost the last of our money we came on to Australia.
We had not initially told anyone that we planned to settle in Australia
– indicating to outsiders that we intended to go on to New Zealand,
but this was largely to put our enemies off our tracks. Nor, if we had wished to do so, did we have the money to travel further
and eventually Rev Mother went with Father Ignatius to Canberra to arrange for us to be granted
permission to stay in Australia.
Working in Australia
For a space we were supported in Sydney by more money sent by Father
Stephen from England, living in the Mansion House (a cheap hotel) and gathering for services and community meetings in the Superior’s
room, but eventually the money ran out again. For a time the women and children were accommodated in a Salvation Army refuge
(the “People’s Palace”), but the men were forced to live in a
separate home for derelicts and with the community thus split up and destitute, some
of the members offered to go out to work. Rev. Mother had long foreseen the necessity but it distressed her greatly, for as their Superior, she had accepted
responsibility for the spiritual development of each member of the community. Realising
the temptations to which they would be exposed by returning to the world, particularly the temptation to desire worldly possessions,
she did her utmost to protect them from such exposure for as long as possible. Many years later she put it to me thus; “they had given up the world, how could I ask them to go back
to working in it”? Thus I gained another glimpse of her personal inner struggle, which very few ever did.
Some members resented her reluctance to accept what they saw as inevitable[26], but eventually she allowed several of them to obtain jobs. With the wages, the Community suddenly
became financial again and we were able to rent a large house in Bondi, where we lived for two years. I remember Bondi quite
well. The house was near the famous beach and it was there that I attended a public school for the only time in my life (late 1955 and 1956). In after years, (about
1964) Rev. Mother told me that she had interviewed the Headmistress about my attendance, and was asked about Religious
Instruction. Miss Howie mentioned several Protestant alternatives, but Rev. Mother’s comment was, “Well, the only
one that might be any good would be the Roman Catholic”. Miss Howie hastily agreed that “perhaps it would be best
if he didn’t attend Religious Instruction”. At the time I did not know of this conversation and was in fact sent
to some sort of Protestant Religious Instruction, although Rev. Mother didn’t know about it until I told her in 1964![27]
However I didn’t remain long at school, and from the beginning of 1957 Rev. Mother decided to
teach me herself at home. However, by this time the disruption to Community life caused by so many members going out to work,
was causing both practical and spiritual difficulties, so we purchased the machinery to start a Wool-working business and
arranged for several members to give up work and come home to run it. However, we could hardly do this in the centre of Bondi,
and so it was no surprise when she was told that we would have to move again. There was, however, another and more sinister
reason to leave, for by this time the Enemy had located us again. At the time (1957)
the Cold War was at its height and I remember vividly having pointed out to me, a group of men staying in a hotel opposite
as being “Russians”. Later (1964) Rev. Mother told me who they really
were; the enemy had established an electronic listening post in the hotel and they were trying to eavesdrop on our conversations,
probably in an attempt to locate Sister Nina.
In November 1957 we moved to Blackheath in the Blue Mountains about 70 miles west of Sydney, where Rev. Mother, escorted by Brother Francis, had obtained a rental agreement on
a large house in large grounds, without explaining to the owner that it was for the use of a religious community. This was
to make it hard for our enemies to locate us and at that time we always tried to avoid giving any signs of such “abnormality.”
It was decided that Father Peter and Sister Filia Regina, having the best-paid jobs, should remain in Sydney until the business became established
and then return, but somehow, they were never able to do so.
Rev. Mother had told Julian Zbroznik, the owner of the house in Blackheath that the tenants would
consist of an extended family; herself, her son who was with her (Brother Francis)
and his family (by which she indicated Sister Mary and her children) her son’s
sister (Sister Ursula) and her husband and family. This explained most of the people
who would be staying in the house, and it was substantially true, for Brother Francis was of course the spiritual son of the
Rev. Mother, though not her physical son. Obviously, however it was not the whole truth and was also a little misleading,
for Sister Mary was not married to Brother Francis (John
Ball), but to Father Peter and the deception, though
convenient at the time, later gave rise to some scandal, as Sister Mary, became known locally as Mrs Ball.
On
29 December 1957, not long after we arrived in Blackheath, Father Ignatius was consecrated as a bishop by Father Filius Domini
assisted by Father Peter and St Serapha. I was present at this ceremony, and though not yet nine, remember it quite well.
It was the first such ceremony that I can recall and I at the time I knew enough to question why St. Serapha played such a
prominent role and was told merely that it was because she was Rev. Mother. Obviously I now understand that as Abbess she
had both the right and the duty to assist at ordinations and consecrations of her spiritual sons, though not, of course, to
officiate.
As
part of her efforts to conceal the community from our enemies, St Serapha, was often engaged in such petty deceptions, and
there is no doubt that the mere fact of its survival has justified her actions, but like any misdeed, such acts of deception produce karma. At times, of course, in the spiritual life, the end may
justify the means, but if the means bring karma, it must be paid, and paid in full.[28] So it proved in this case, although I am sure that it was accepted and paid
willingly in the knowledge that the end result would be beneficial to the Work. I believe it was largely as a result of this
karma, that when the Enemy renewed its attacks on the life of Rev. Mother, early in 1958, they nearly succeeded. She was seriously
ill with pneumonia for some weeks, (thus helping to settle any such karma) but
several injections of penicillin saved her life, as it had once before.[29]
St Serapha in Redcliffe
After her recovery, the Master sent her to live in Redcliffe to convalesce, and she went alone, taking
with her only Sister Therese and I, the two members that she saw as her special charges. I have elsewhere given an account
of our time at Redcliffe, and here, I will be brief, for I am telling St Serapha’s story, not my own. We rented a small
cottage from a local couple, Cec and Muriel Clark, who later built Clark’s Arcade.
They were good people and became our only real friends in Redcliffe. Mrs Clarke was about ten years younger than Rev. Mother,
but she is the only person I know who was ever allowed to call her “Jessie”.
There were only the three of us, and Rev. Mother filled the role of priest, even celebrating the
Eucharist. Apparently, soon after his consecration, Rev. Father had ordained her to the priesthood, possibly as part of her
installation as Abbess. Although this Rite confers many of the powers of the Priesthood
including the power to Bless and to hear Confession, it does not normally include the authority to celebrate the Eucharist,
for by its very nature celebrating the Eucharist is the prerogative of a male, as representative of Christ. However, she was
clearly a special case, and in Redcliffe there was no alternative; I was the only male present and I was only nine. She never celebrated when a priest was available and no other female
in our Church[30] has ever been given the power to take the Eucharist because as St Serapha herself was to say, only Christ has the authority
to “open the doors of the priesthood to women”. [31] Perhaps He, personally, had done so for her.
In Redcliffe, she recovered quite quickly from her illness, and as she once put it to me, “God
gave me a rest for a few months”, but by Christmas 1958, the Enemy had found
her and the War was on again. At the time I accepted at face value, her dictum, that for Midnight Mass that year we should
all remain within a circle that she marked on the floor and asked us to pretend it was the Cave at Bethlehem. Sister Therese and I obeyed and the service passed without incident. It was five
years later that she told me what had really been going on. Two of the enemy had attempted to kill her with some sort of psychic
weapon from the Astral during the service. Upon the Master’s instructions she exorcised and thus compelled them to stand
and wait outside at the foot of the steps[32]. The Master had told her that he would protect the rest of us as long as we proved our obedience
by remaining within the marked area. Had I not done so[33], perhaps I would not be writing this today!
Initially Rev. Mother had not expected to spend long in Redcliffe, but once the enemy had found her,
she knew that the stay would be extended, and in March 1959 she sent for Michael Strong[34], to be a “companion for me,” as I was then told, though I now know there were other
reasons[35]. It was she who taught Michael and me our schoolwork using normal Queensland textbooks, and this continued to the end of 1960 when she decided that our formal
schooling would come to an end. This was at least partly because, starting on the Festival of Christ the King that year, she
had begun to teach me about the Occult. Also she herself was getting busier and from then onwards she spent most days in her
room typing, recording messages, mystical experiences, and particularly the details of her War with the Enemy.
Living with a Saint.
Some time after that, probably as a result of a message from the Master, she announced that our life
in Redcliffe was about to change; “We have had a home, and a very happy home,” she said, “But we have not
been living the religious life, and it is now time that we did.” It was
only from about this time onwards, that I began to realise just how holy our Rev. Mother was. She was in almost constant contact
with the Master of the Work - a Throne whose task it was to guide and direct her and she followed his orders explicitly and
exactly. If Michael and I were sent out merely to post a letter, we were always told which route to take and she would never
buy anything without first seeking guidance. Once, I remember, I was with her in the Jetty Newsagency, when she was thinking
of buying something. Before doing so she stood stock still in the middle of the busy shop, whilst she asked the Master for
permission. Later she explained this process to me, pointing out that asking
for permission to do something was not as simple as it seemed. “If you ask ‘can I buy that’ you would probably
get the reply ‘if you wish’,” she explained, “Or simply ‘you may’, even if it was not
the right thing to do. She went on to explain that this was because an Angelic servant of God is bound by His Laws, and therefore
can not do anything against human free will; and asking to do something inferred that you wished to do it. If you really wanted
to know God’s Will, you should ask “What do you wish me to do” or “Is there anything you wish me to
do”. Freed from the restrictions imposed by his respect for your free will, the Guide might then say “buy so-and-so”
or “don’t buy it” or perhaps “look around the shop a bit more” or “try another shop”,
or even something quite different.
For about a year and a half we lived a fairly strict religious life, supporting her whilst she waged
the war with the Enemy. Sister Therese looked after us boys and kept house, whilst Michael and I played and studied. Then
about the middle of 1962, Father Peter came to visit. Rev. Mother, Michael and I went to Brisbane
to meet him, and caught up with him at the bus depot. I was quite impressed when he knelt to St Serapha and kissed her hand,
right there on the pavement in the middle of Brisbane! He
stayed with us for about three days, and spent much time talking to her. He then returned to Sydney, but a year later (mid 1963) he came back
again, this time accompanied by Sister, and again they spent much time talking with Rev. Mother.
Rev. Mother and I often talked about theology and morality – usually with me asking questions
and her providing enlightenment, but at times I would challenge her assertions. I well remember one such occasion, when she
insisted that we should not watch television – then in its infancy in Redcliffe. Her reason was that the Enemy could
use it to influence us – they could somehow affect our sub-conscious minds without our conscious minds being aware of
it. Already reasonably cognizant of the scientific processes involved I disputed this – I could not see any way in which
a purely mechanical system could affect the sub-conscious mind, other than through the conscious. She insisted; “I don’t
know how they do it, but I know they do” and there the matter rested for a while.
Then one evening listening to the radio news, I heard that the government was proposing legislation
that prevented the use of “advertisements on Television that involved the flashing of very short duration slogans on
the screen, too short to be registered by the conscious mind, but which nevertheless can influence the sub-conscious processes
of viewers.” Suddenly I realised that this was what she had been talking about. When I told her, all she said was –
“Probably you’re right – I didn’t know how it was done, I just knew they could do it.” Thereafter
I was much less ready to challenge her assertions.
Michael and I sometimes fought, and this worried Rev. Mother, and led to the only time that I ever
saw her really distressed. On this occasion we had not actually been fighting, but he had pretended that I had hurt his arm,
rolling around on the floor and making out that it was broken. Entering into the spirit of the thing, I rushed off to Rev.
Mother’s room, and struggling to keep a straight face, told her “Michael’s broken his arm”. For once
she was deceived, and hurried through to see. When she found that it was all a joke, she collapsed in a chair, and I well
remember her saying to Sister Therese; “my first thought was ‘what doctor can I get him’”. By this
she meant ‘who was there who she could approach who she could be sure was not connected with the Enemy’. I didn’t
get into trouble for my thoughtless “joke”, but her reaction made certain that I never tried anything like that
again.
Although her health was generally good, by this time Rev. Mother was clearly aging and she often found
the Queensland summer heat trying. She frequently made use
of a small hand fan and was very grateful when presented with a small personal electric version. She also suffered through
a toe that had been broken in Cyprus and
that had never been properly set. It rubbed badly because it was permanently crossed over the one next to it and whenever
she happened to knock it, it caused her great pain.
The Death of “Sister Therese”
Sister Therese had suffered from stomach ulcers as a result of the stresses she had undergone through
the Case, and in January 1963 they began bleeding badly. Rev. Mother sent Michael and I down to the Clark’s
at about 8.00pm, on the 21st to ask for help. Normally we were never allowed out after dark, but this was an emergency
and Mr Clark phoned a doctor who was at the house before we got back. Sister Therese was sent to hospital in an ambulance,
and Rev Mother went with her. We were alone that night, (Monday night) but Rev.
Mother returned early in the morning. After checking on us, she went back to be with Sister Therese in the hospital, although
she returned to spend the Tuesday night with us. She left very early Wednesday, telling us that the hospital had called and
said Sister Therese was “very, very ill”. Insensitively I asked if the Hospital had actually said that, which
she acknowledged and then left. Brutally I turned to Michael remarking “when the hospital says that, they usually die”.
To our surprise Rev. Mother was back by about 8.00am and she then told us that Sister Therese was dead.
“The hospital said she died early Wednesday morning, but actually it was late Tuesday night”, she told us later.
I never did find out whether the hospital had actually called the first time, but I now doubt it, for we had no phone! Probably
she already knew that Sister Therese had died and merely needed to ring to get the details. A blood transfusion could have
saved her, but of course the psychic contact that would have resulted if she had received blood from a person connected with
the Enemy could have been worse than fatal, and Sister Therese had not been prepared to risk it. “The hospital asked
me to try and talk her round, but of course I wouldn’t do that. I told them it was her decision”, Rev. Mother
explained to us.
In a sense, like Sister Bertha and Sister Bridget before her, she died a martyr for the work. Rev.
Mother had not wanted to tell us the news when we first woke up, and when we had thought she was going to the hospital again,
she had merely gone up to the local phone box to ring Blackheath. As a result Sister Mary and Father Ignatius flew up, the
latter to take the funeral. This was my first experience of a “public” service” and I carried the cross,
but the only outsiders present were the Clarks. That evening a reporter came to the door,
asking questions about Sr Therese and the Church. Rev Mother and Father Ignatius spoke to him. “Would you call yourselves
break-away at all?” he asked. Rev. Mother was most insistent, “No, we have the original line of succession right
through”, she said. The next day the report appeared on the front page of the Courier Mail under the heading “Refused
Blood – she died”.
Sister Helena came to Redcliffe to take Sr Therese’ place, but soon afterwards, (March 1963) two Queensland detectives came
to the house in Redcliffe to interview St Serapha about Dorothy Lough. It was patently a “fishing expedition”
probably triggered by our enemies in England,
for they were apparently unaware of her death. Rev. Mother was their main target, but in addition Sister Helena, Michael and
I were all called in to be questioned. In my presence Rev. Mother challenged them at one point – she said that even
if Dorothy Lough was found she would by then be well over 21 and so entitled to make her own decisions.
They told her quite bluntly that this was not so, and that the Court Order forbade her from ever having
any contact with us, no matter what her age. Apparently Rev. Mother had been unaware of this till that point, but if further
proof were needed that the Community had acted rightly in defying the secular power, this provided it. Such an order against
freedom of association was clearly a total denial of natural justice and thus it was only after nearly twenty years that we
were shown just how completely the British Judicial system had been corrupted. The community had been fully justified in its
original actions and had it not acted as and when it did, Dorothy Lough would never have been able to fulfil her vows to God.
St Serapha and Michael the Seraph
It was as a result of the incident with the detectives that Rev. Mother decided to tell me somewhat
of her story and thereafter she began to teach me more about the Occult and especially about Psychic warfare. After the death
of Rev. Father, the Seraph Michael, Captain of the Hosts of Heaven had taken her under his special protection. The Seraph
Michael is the greatest of all the Angels of God and it was he, together with the Master that accompanied and protected Rev.
Mother in all her battles with the enemy and I well remember her description of Michael on one such occasion as “. .
. towering above the Master even as the Master towered above me.” After her illness in 1958 her relationship with the
Seraph Michael had become especially close and in fact her description of it to me, implied that that illness should have
marked her death (meaning that by then she had earned the right to pass to the Plane
of the Saints) but that for the sake of the work she had been permitted to remain for a few more years. Since then, she once told me, her own Guardian Angel “has been
taking a rest, preparing to pass higher and Michael has acted as my Guardian Angel.” Obviously, under normal circumstances a Guardian
Angel does not “take a rest” until its pupil is ready to become a saint, and the phrase, “preparing to pass
higher”, clearly implies that hers had earned the right to pass to the Archangelic Plane and was probably preparing
to do so[36], whilst the Seraph Michael had himself assumed the duties of her “Guardian Angel”.
Although I did not realise it at the
time, this is incredibly significant, for it implies that she remained on earth for seven years longer than was required for
her to achieve perfection, in order to perform a very special work. It links her with Our Lady, who was her Patron Saint,
and who also spent time on earth after her own needs no longer required it[37]. It also explains why the Enemy saw her as being greater than Rev. Father had been, for
it seems that he had passed to the Plane of the Saints immediately he had earned the right to do so, in 1949. St Serapha had
apparently reached the same stage early in 1958, and during the years that followed, she became even more advanced. When she
was finally permitted to pass hence, she was not only able to pass to the Plane of the Saints, but like Our Lady was also
made free of the Angelic Plane.
This does not mean that she became an
Angel - merely that, with the passing of Our Lady and many older Saints, to the Angelic Plane[38], she and Rev Father are now among the leaders of the Saintly Confraternity. Furthermore,
although not yet joined together in one Angelic Body they are free to pass to that realm at will and commune with those who
dwell there, a privilege that, so far as we know had previously been granted only to the Virgin Mary. It is usually considered
that Mary only received this wonderful privilege because she came back to earth again, after having earned the right to pass
to the Planes of the Saints – something that she did because God asked her to become the earthly Mother of Christ. So
what did St Serapha do to earn the same right?
The Operation of Karma in extreme Situations
After the Enemy had failed to kill her in the War in Cyprus,
Lucifer, in accordance with the Divine Laws[39], instructed them to desist from further attacks[40] but they failed to obey their own leader. Lucifer did not warn them again for he is known as
the Father of Lies and his task is to test not only good souls, but even the most evil that they may be led to fall even lower.
Therefore although his order had been disobeyed he did not attempt to enforce it but continued to help his servants in their
attempts to destroy St Serapha and the Work, thus leading them further and further into sin, but at the same providing us
with further opportunities for progress.[41].
Had they obeyed Lucifer at that time, left the Work alone, and instead of attacking us, concentrated
on promoting Satan as Anti-Christ, as he had told them to do, they would have served the Evil Purpose better. In such an event,
the struggle between we who strive to prepare for the coming of Christ and those who sought to establish Lucifer as Anti-Christ,
would have been perilously close. So close that St Serapha herself would not say what the final result would have been, though
she did emphasise that since Christ had promised to Return He would do so, but added “there might not have been much
of a world left for Him to Rule”.[42] As it was the Enemy spent so many years attacking St Serapha that what should have been their
main task was neglected and the world survived the threat of nuclear war. Furthermore, by her struggle and the eventual sacrifice
of her life, she earned for the Work many psychic rights and privileges that now make our exorcisms the most powerful on earth.
The Last Years.
During her last years Rev. Mother regularly attended meetings of the Enemy in the Astral, accompanied
and protected by Michael and the Master of the Work. The enemy often knew she was present but could do nothing to keep her
away so they developed a special type of gun to kill her. Their plan was that she was to be brought to a Circle Meeting, compelled
to materialise and then that materialisation would be shot. This would produce an effect on the physical body that would make
it appear to suffer a heart attack in its sleep. I asked her what happened when they were ready for her. She replied simply
“I just didn’t materialise.”
Despite several such attempts on her life she continued to monitor their meetings, recording their
plans and discussions, and on several occasions materialising and speaking to them as the Master directed. Apparently on such
occasions “The Master kept them listening to me”. It was from monitoring such meetings that she was made aware
of how and why many things had happened in the past and I studied her records of these meetings under her guidance.
I recall one of them in which a member discussed an abortion they had procured in Sister Mary in Blackheath.
“The Master (Lucifer) suggested that we produce an abortion.” I read.
“That just sounds like him (Lucifer),” snorted Rev. Mother, “Killing
an unborn baby”. Clearly she knew Lucifer and his methods only too well! The enemy also discussed the Case, “that
was when Inskip was Chief Justice. He got hold of the trial Judge. . .” Thereafter
they discussed the attempt to gain Right of Entry to the Abbey in Barnet; “We sent bailiffs to try to gain Right of
Entry, but they said and had papers to prove it, that the house was owned by the community. By some oversight the charges
had been laid against the man only (Rev. Father) and so the attempt was unsuccessful”
Decimation of the Community
The death of Sister Therese, marked the beginning of a time of severe trial for the community, for
from that time onward the Enemy redoubled their attacks and we lost four other members, over the next couple of years. They
continued to try to attack St Serapha, but they also assailed the community in Blackheath, seeking Right of Entry and trying
to obtain Psychic Contact with members. In Cyprus
in 1951, they had obtained both through relatives of some of the members of the community, particularly through Doris Middleton,
Sister Bertha’s sister. I am not saying that she or any other relatives were knowing
allies of the Black Magicians, but they were no friends to the Community, and thus were easily used by our enemies as the
means of establishing psychic contact with its members.
In Cyprus, at first,
we had not realised the danger, but by the time Sister Gabrielle’s father (Charles
Hopping) made contact with her in late 1963 Rev. Mother was fully aware of the potential risks. She immediately had to
decide what to do about Sr Gabrielle and the contact that had been established and her decision was prompt but fair. She should
leave the community for a time and work away, as were Father Peter and Sister Filia Regina at the time, For a time she should
have no further direct contact with the community; then when the Work in Redcliffe was finished, and we all came together
again[43], she would return to the community as would also Father Peter and Sister Filia Regina at that
time.
By that date I was also aware of the psychic dangers, and fully endorsed her decision, but some
members of the community, were less well versed in psychic matters and thought that it was harsh. However, worse was to follow!
When Father Filius Domini, the Prior of the community who had been in effective charge at Blackheath during Rev. Mother’s
absence, died on 3rd March 1964, she flew down for the funeral, and appointed
Sr Mary, the senior sister resident at Blackheath[44] to take his place, and also arranged for Brother Francis
to be ordained a priest, and then consecrated a bishop to help safeguard the Holy Orders. Father Peter and Father Ignatius
performed the consecration and she assisted, just as she had assisted at the consecration of Father Ignatius in late 1957.
When she returned to Redcliffe, she told me that there had been so much power at the service[45] that she had had to support both Father Peter and Father Francis. “What about Father Ignatius”
I asked. “Oh, he seemed less affected,” was all the explanation that I could get out of her at the time, but when
later that year (October) Father Ignatius wrote to her, tendering his resignation
from the community[46], I understood[47]. Technically, as he had taken vows for life, he had no right to resign, but Rev. Mother accepted
his decision. Later he wrote again seeking to withdraw that resignation, but, as she said to me at the time “You couldn’t
have that. If people could come in and out of the order just as they liked you’d never know where you were.”[48] Whilst this would have undoubtedly caused practical difficulties, she was mainly concerned with
the spiritual and the psychic damage that could thereby be wrought.
Death and Triumph of St Serapha
Things were bad in the community at Blackheath. Obviously the Wool Work had been brought to an end.
Father Peter and Sister Filia Reginae were still living and working in Sydney, but in Blackheath the sole income now came
from Father Francis, a qualified builder, who had set up in business as such and it was also he who provided our income at
Redcliffe at that time[49], for St Serapha refused to apply for the government pension, tow which at that time she would
have been entitled. “I came into earth-life to help the world, not to sponge off it,” was her explanation, the
only time I recall the subject arising.
About mid November 1964 Rev. Mother flew back down to Blackheath to try to sort out the relationship
between Father Peter and Sister who still lived and worked in Sydney, and the remainder of the community in Blackheath. Again
she did not expect to be gone more that a short while, but the weeks passed, and that Christmas was the first I had ever spent
away from her. Perhaps to comfort me for this, or perhaps because she realised that she would never see me in the flesh again,
she sent me a brief “Christmas Message from Rev. Father” which I still keep. In Cyprus she had regularly provided
me with “Messages from Daddy” at Christmas and on other special occasions, but this, I like to think, was her
way of saying goodbye to me.
In January she wrote a normal letter to me; “I miss you all,” it read “I do not know
when the Master will let me come back to Queensland, but
I hope it will be soon.” It never happened. On going to wake her in the morning of February 4th 1965 Sister
Mary found her dead. We may never know exactly what happened that night. Probably the Enemy finally killed her aging earthly
body, perhaps in the way that they had planned, that would have seemed like a heart attack – the officially-recognised
cause of her death. However, this would only have been permitted because her work on earth was done. They were certainly unable
to harm her spirit, which flew swiftly to its natural abode, but like Christ Himself, in her death she triumphed. For as a
result of their disobedience to their own Master, the Enemy lost many of their rights to the protection and help that Lucifer
had previously been able to afford them. In particular, by slaying her against his instructions they lost much of their power
against her fellow-labourers in the Work of Christ on Earth.
Christ the Divine Salvator, died for the salvation of the world, thus significantly reducing the ability
of the Powers of Darkness to harm His followers throughout the whole world. Our Rev Mother was a mere mortal, but she, too,
died for others - in her case it was for the salvation and future success of those who participated in the Work she helped
to Found and the results have been significant. Since that time our exorcisms have possessed a strength unequalled on earth,
and through them we have been substantially protected from the dangers inherent in “Psychic Contact” and “Right
of Entry” and thus from the psychic attacks of the Enemy.
A few days after Rev. Mother’s death Sister Mary reported that she had received a message from
the Angelic Guardian about her; “Henceforth she will be known as Saint Serapha”, he had said. The implication
was clear. She was a saint. She was a great saint, but she was more than that. She was also free of the Angelic Plane[50] and by the sacrifice of her death, and that of her fellow martyr, Rev. Father, the ultimate
success of the Work on Earth was assured. With their help we shall carry it forward till the coming of Christ the King.
[1]
That is not to say that psychic or even mystical contact is not affected by physical sickness. It is,
and during the time of Ward’s early psychic contacts, they suffered when
he was ill as recorded in “Gone West” Part 1; 35; 9 “Note: - I went up to Cambridge on the 3rd, and all through August suffered from a sharp attack of pleurisy. During
the whole of that time I had no visions, nor did I attempt automatic writing. It was not till the 5th of September that I
was able to resume automatic writing at Mr. K.'s house.
Similarly on the night before the day he died, when he simply felt a little unwell, he had been unable
to get a detailed message from the Angelic Guardian; merely a brief; “‘We
are well pleased with all that has been done today.’ (Father Peter’s Diaries
25; 74)
[2]
I suspect this because he was given
his father’s name, which one might expect to be borne by the oldest son. Of course, his father died shortly before his
birth, and this may have been the reason he was named after him.
[3]
William
Stead was a spiritualist who died on the Titanic after leading passengers in the
hymn, ‘Nearer, my God, to Thee.’ His daughter, Stella, heard from
The Beyond about this incident and published an account of it, and it was she who set up the spiritualist enquiry agency called
Stead’s Bureau
[4]
He wrote for the Encyclopaedia Britannica
on the subject and his Masonic books are still sold as standard reference works through the Internet.
[5]
She referred to it as the F.B.I.,
and at one stage I thought he was head of the British Intelligence Service!
[6]
I once asked her quite bluntly how
she knew about this story, for it was never made public and she replied simply: “At that time your father held a very
responsible position and he was party to many government secrets. He told me about it.”
[7]
She told me that she had visited an
exhibition of photographs of some of these atrocities, and in response to my demand for details, she referred to a picture
of a class of school-children with their tongues nailed to their desks. She was clearly still revulsed by the memories of
this exhibition and it was thus made clear to me that her anti-communist views were not based on merely philosophical objections,
but on her own experiences.
[8]
At that time Golder’s Green
it was an upper-middle-class, residential suburb in north-western London
[9]
Father Peter has recorded some further
details of this period in the first chapter of his diaries and the reader may wish to compare the two accounts.
[10]
As the descents of Christ always coincide
with a change in the status of the Work here on earth, it should not surprise us to find this first descent linked with the
first step in its establishment, although details are unclear.
[11]
It may seem strange
to talk about the “descent” of Christ to the Plane of the Seraphim for the First Vision of Brother Seraphion makes
it clear that He ever dwells amid the Seraphim. Nevertheless in a very real sense Christ did at that time “descend”
– leaving His Divine Throne as Eternal God, and taking upon Himself the form of a Seraph. From this time He “walked
abroad” among all the Seraphim, as a Seraph among the Seraphs, visiting even the furthest and least advanced reaches
of that vast Plane.
[12]
One couple, the Chamberlains, remained
in the Work till their deaths; the other did not stay for long.
[13]
Jean Page (later known as St Jean) also continued to live
with them until her death in 1944.
[14]
These mean respectively; Guardian
of the Guardians and Towards the Heights. It seems, however, that the Rev. Father’s name, by which St Serapha often
referred to him, had been used by him well before this time, for there is evidence that when he was admitted to the Rosicrucian
Order, the “Fellowship of the Rosy Cross” on 22 March 1921 it was as Frater (Brother)
Custos Custodiens. As to whether or not St Serapha’s Latin name originated in the same way, I cannot say. It is noteworthy,
however that neither her name nor Rev. Father’s have specifically Christian connotations, and thus reflected the vast
breadth of their early seeking. By contrast, those of the other Founders, Filius Domini (Son
of the Lord), Filia Regina (Daughter of the Queen) In Manbibus Dei (Into the hands of God) and Via Crucis (By Way of the Cross) can be obviously linked with the Christian theology that the Abbey propounded from that
time onwards.
[15]
St Serapha once explained to me that
“they can call them up to act as padres, but not to fight”. As it
was, the war government recognised the Abbey as a religious house and none of the men (Rev.
Father, Father Filius Domini, Father Peter and Father Ignatius) were called up.
[16]
Born: 1st November 1926,
she died in January 1963
[17]
Other people have doubted that it
was anywhere near this level, but this is the figure she gave me. It probably included the costs of Rev. Father’s Bankruptcy
as well as the actual costs and damages of the Case itself. It may even have
included the costs connected with the move from England and the resettlement
in Cyprus, but she was insistent on the
figure. Certainly the raising of such a vast sum in barely twelve months placed an enormous strain on the community and this
is attested by a hand-written addition in Rev. Father’s personal hymnbook, that I was given by St Serapha in Redclife
and which I used until it became too fragile; “Send the money we are needing” it reads, replacing the third line
of verse nine of what is now Hymn no 166.
[18]
A term connected with Psychic Warfare.
Psychically-speaking a man’s home is his castle and it is not possible for a Psychic to enter one’s home against
one’s will through Astral-travelling unless he/she has first obtained “Right of Entry”. This is most usually
obtained by first entering the home in the physical, perhaps as an invited guest, or in some other way, with the at-least
tacit consent of the owner. Hence any legal means of entering a house, such as the execution of a search-warrant can be used
to gain Right of Entry
[19]
These included a local Roman Catholic
convent and Gerald Gardner, then a friend of Rev. Father, but who later became the founder of modern Wicca.
[20]
In Abraham’s case, it will be
remembered that Sarah did eventually give birth to a child, even though she was long past menopause, and some members of the
community apparently felt that Rev. Mother might likewise bear a “special child.”
However, to the best of my knowledge, she never expected this, although one of his “letters” to me suggests
that at one stage she thought that Rev. Father might be re-born into the community if it proved worthy. Apparently it never
did, for this did not happen, at least, not within her lifetime.
[21]
Although some women might have found
this difficult, by then she was well past such petty possessiveness. Certainly she always treated me with the greatest affection
and my mother with consideration.
[22]
This was purely a religious ceremony.
The legal ceremony took place about the 19th April. (F. Peter’s Diary
chap 24; 134) Sr Mary miscarried about ten days later.
[23]
After the Rev. Father’s death,
when St Serapha took up the sole oversight of the Work, she and the members, sought by monumental acts of self-sacrifice and
a rigid obedience, to rectify the “failures” of the past which they felt had led to their beloved Reverend Father
being taken from them. At the same time, the Powers of Evil attacked voraciously, and the community was for a time in real
danger of destruction. During that time and even afterwards a number of theories about the nature of the Return of Christ
and related subjects circulated within the community, without ever having any real backing from the Superior. Certainly there was the hope, that Reverend Father would be reincarnated speedily
and once again take his part in the Work and there is, perhaps some truth in the idea that St Serapha may have hoped that
she would bear him miraculously, for of course she was well past the age of child-bearing. Some members, however, thought
that she would actually bear the Christ Child, something to which certainly she never aspired and in actual fact, it was from
about this time, and perhaps as the result of the failure of the English nation, that the laws of karma began to exclude the
possibility that Christ would return as a Babe. Looking back, we can see that probably He had never intended to do so, but
at the time this was not clear, for the visualizations of even the greatest mystics are to at least some extent limited by
the ordinary laws of mortality and the community felt itself at least partly to blame for the failure of the English nation.
I shall address this subject in depth, elsewhere.
[24]
This is why sex plays such an important
part in many occult rites. The power of the sex act is well known and heterosexual intercourse between spouses, in whatever
format, is recognised by the church as being an essential part of the Sacrament of Matrimony. Psychically it can provide a
strong link between the partners, and even in non-psychic couples this often produces some level of telepathy, whilst when
both parties are psychic, even more dramatic effects can result - for good or ill, sometimes even without conscious intent.
For instance, if one partner harbours resentment against the other, intercourse alone can trigger a serious illness in the
other, without any deliberate intention of doing so. If harm is intended, any
form of sex can provide the strongest possible psychic contact
[25]
This came mainly, I believe, from
Father Stephen and Sr Grace who mortgaged their house to the tune of about £ 6000
in total, a vast sum of money in the 1950’s and a major impost on their declining
years as they paid it off again.. Although as both their surviving children were members of the community it could be argued
that they were only doing what any parents would have done, we were always grateful for their support, both then and when
we arrived in Australia and I feel sure that God has since rewarded them.
[26]
She opposed their getting jobs until
it was absolutely necessary, for she realised the many trials and temptations that they would thus encounter and she was right.
The order was never the same again in later years, for this contact with the world did lead to a decline in its collective
spiritual standing and in some cases eventually led to members leaving the community completely.
[27]
This was very fundamentalist. I was
told that Eve was made out of one of Adam’s ribs, and also that the proof of this fact was that even today men had one
less rib than women! It was several years later before I found that men and women have the same number of ribs! Even today
many fundamentalists use similar falsifications of facts to “prove” their claims, especially the idea that creation
is only a 6000 years old. .
[28]
The Karmic result of any action will
obviously be mitigated by a good motive, but when one knows that one is doing wrong, yet feels that the end justifies the
means, the karmic price must still be paid – for not even confession can ameliorate it further. (This is because, being deliberately undertaken, there is no question of repentance – which is the essential
element of a valid confession).
[29]
She once said to me “penicillin
saved my life twice”; the first time was probably in Cyprus
in late1951.
[30]
I can vouch for the fact that spiritually
speaking she did have this authority. Her services produced a tremendous amount of power, and on one occasion, when receiving
the Sacrament from her, I experienced a partial physical transformation of the Sacrament, whereby the wine actually changed
to Blood in my mouth.
[31]
She did, however, indicate that she
believed He would do so when He came again, or perhaps introduce a Rite to replace the Eucharist in which women would participate
equally with men.
[32]
It was a high set
house and apparently she kept them waiting there in the Astral until the Master told her to release them. Their long and uncomfortable
absence from the circle meeting caused great consternation among the other members who never expected to see them alive again.
Apparently it was unheard of for any to be absent in the Astral for so long, and all attempts to recall them failed until
Rev. Mother released them.
[33]
In the context of Psychic Conflict,
obedience is absolutely essential. Even the most psychic individual is rarely aware of the full context of an attack, and
even a minor disobedience makes it much harder for the Powers of Light to protect us from the assaults of the Enemy for it
means that Lucifer can validly claim that disobedience denies us any karmic right to such protection.
[34]
He was put on a plane at Sydney and we met him at Brisbane airport
on the 11th March. It had been intended that he would fly up on the 10th, St Serapha’s birthday,
but no tickets were available.
[35]
These include the important parts
we were each to play in the work in the future; he, through his labours with the Museum, and me through the Church. It was
her hope that we would develop a good working relationship for we “would need to work together in the future,”
which for a space we did around 1980, with him writing lectures for the Museum and me reading them onto tapes for public presentations.
Perhaps we will again in the future – I do not know.
[36]
I did not realise its significance
when she said this, but obviously I now know that an Angel only becomes an Archangel after
its pupil has completed its earthly task.
[37]
I am not claiming that she was the
equal of Our Lady, who came back to earth for a full incarnation after achieving perfection. Merely that her effort, though
less, was of the same type and had a similar karmic result. Now, of course, Our Lady dwells permanently on the Angelic Plane,
whilst St. Serapha is still “merely” a Saint.
[38]
When Christ finished His work on the
Plane of the Saints those who were then deemed worthy passed forward to the Angelic Plane had been prophesied 30 years before
in the Sixth Vision of Brother Seraphion.
[39]
The sufferings of the community in
Cyprus and its strict obedience at that
time were such that it collectively earned the right to be left alone. The enemy, however, does not obey Divine Laws, and
for a space they defied them, but the further trials that they then imposed on us, and which culminated in the martyrdom of
St Serapha gained for the Work further tremendous Psychic advantages.
[40]
Note that Lucifer, being a servant
of God, must himself abide by His Laws, though it is also his task to tempt others to break them. This is what occurred here.
[41]
This is the karmic disadvantage that
afflicts all the powers of evil and is in a sense the karma that they bring upon themselves by defying the laws of God, but
howsoever it be regarded, it means that any test or temptation that they inflict upon a servant of Christ is very much a two-edged
sword. In other words, because God will not suffer us to be tempted above that which we are able to bear, any test brings
with it not only the possibility of a spiritual fall but equally, if defied or passed, the chance of great spiritual gain.
[42]
See also Christ’s question in
St Luke 18; 8: “Nevertheless when the Son of man cometh, shall he find faith on the earth?” At that time this
was not entirely a rhetorical question – today, however, due in no small measure to the length of time the enemy spent
trying to kill St Serapha, we know the answer. He will.
[43]
It was always made clear to all at
Redcliffe that our separation from the main body of the Community was only temporary and that in due course we would “:Move”
again and rejoin them. This is in effect what happened, though not till after the death of St Serapha.
[44]
She was actually the second most senior
member, for Sr. Filia Regina, the widow of Father Filius Domini and like him one of the Founders, was obviously more so, but
she was living in Sydney at that time. Sr. Mary was the most senior member among those that normally resided at Blackheath.
[45]
This took place on Easter Sunday 29th
March 1964. Later during our Communion at Redcliffe the following Pentecost, the whole house shook and we could find no natural
explanation (we even looked in the papers for reports of an earth tremor) Some
days afterwards, apparently as a result of a message from the Angelic Guardian, Rev. Mother told us that because we had “missed
out” on the great descent of power at Father Francis’ consecration, we had instead been sent this special manifestation.
Possibly, in God’s Plan, both descents of power were designed to help the community to survive the approaching death
of St Serapha.
[46]
He was trying to put pressure on her
to change the appointment of Sr Mary.
[47]
His personal internal conflict would
have effectively blocked much of the power from reaching him.
[48]
Also because of his contact with Sr
Gabrielle, his return to the community at that point in time would have provided the Enemy with a psychic link into the Community.
[49]
We received £15 a week, of which £6:15 went on rent.
[50]
This phrase has a very specific meaning.
It indicates that the spirit concerned, though not yet an Angel, has been granted the right to enter the Angelic Plane at
will. That privilege is very rarely bestowed. So far as I know this was only the second time that it had been granted in this
Age. It was accorded to Our Lady soon after her Assumption, and it was this that has led to her being commonly called “Queen
of Angels”. She retained that privilege until January 1975 when Christ the King left the Saintly Plane and she passed
permanently to the Angelic Plane. In one sense therefore it could be suggested that St Serapha, who left earth life in February
1965, was thus made ready to become her successor on the Saintly Plane.